This blog comes after a period of nearly two months considering the fact that i had bouts of Acute Pancreatitis ( once every 1 month ) followed by laproscopic removal of gall bladder (permanent solution) i dont think i am doing that bad. Life was coming full circles after my surgery this is when i decided to know more about myself and the intricacies of life.
I had read this article in Times of India about the Mystique and the mistake and was very touched by the thoughts expressed by Sadhguru. This is were i decided i take up this programme on Inner engineering since i have a lot of time on my hand owing to my self imposed exile.
I am not going to write here anything about the programme ( since its confidential ) just going to share my experiences and how i feel.
Now my day used to start like this getting up at 10 and flat on the bed by 11. I always felt ignorant about the situation around me and after this programme i feel my awareness or my receptiveness to my immediate sorrounding is increased a few notches. Its just the beginning but i can see the difference. There is a sort of calmness within where i see the whole world rushing around and still feel subtle things around me.
My idea of responsibility has changed where responsibility means to be responsive to the situations around me and not to think whether or not i can take any action. Happiness is obtained by accepting the inevitabilty of the situation and by making peace with it. Peace is mine and i need to nuture it.
My idea of sitting cross legged for 10 mins was like forget it. Initially i experienced a lot of pain sitting cross legged but then there is a saying in english 'That which doesnt kill me makes me strong'.
I feel i have been given a seed which i have to look after and care for better inner growth.
